So as everyone knows, I am trying to land a teaching job for this coming fall. I have so far been unsuccessful. I wish I knew what God had in mind for me. I am so tired of following whatever the path is as faithfully as I can only to continue to be disappointed and let down. It has stretched my faith and there are times where I wonder if it's even worth it. Finding a good, quality job is now the priority and since unemployment runs out in about 3 weeks it has to be sooner than later. I am trying very hard to believe that God's plan is what I should believe in. I am trying very hard to keep the faith and believe.
The softball team just didn't do well at the game tonight. It's not for a lack of trying, the girls really do. What's frustrating about this summer's team is what I am perceiving as a lack of commitment. Most of these girls suffered through a very bad season last fall - the coach was awful as I have detailed before. I've seen this before - my daughter's bsketball team. I have to find a way to get them to first believe in themselves, then believe in the team. These girls are really special and I know things will come around; I just have to find the way to get it done.
So this is where I am tonight. One word comes to mind - "crossroads." Do I turn left, right or keep the same path? At this point for everything in my life, personally, professionally and otherwise, keeping the same path doesn't seem to be the answer. I need direction and I need it now. What does God have in store for me? Am I to struggle for the rest of my life? When do I get that "lucky" break?
This seems like I am depressed. Actually, I'm not. I feel "ok" about life and I do believe that things can only get better. I just need it to happen soon. Now would be good too.
C'mon....time for me to get that break.
